When I decided to write this book, I was experiencing one of the most challenging phases in my adult life. After over 20 years of marriage, I am trying to recover from a divorce that did shake my world like the most powerful earthquake ever experience.
Suddenly I found myself lost, hurt, alone and facing financial challenges. My intuition is guiding me to permit myself to grieve, and to be reunited with my true self. This process took me into a journey of self-realization where a series of emotions will start to appear to come to the surface as I am trying to come out of a deep fog in my life.
Like most people, when we engage in a relationship without noticing the tendency is to mold yourself to the expectations of what you think your partner wants to see in you. This could happen because our concept of love in a relationship comes sometime within the need for acceptance. If he or she is happy with who I am, then I am loved, and that is our EGO perception created by the set of beliefs we have come to accept as truth.
Unfortunately, that is not how it works. I did it and did not work at all. I did try to blend with the culture of family, friends, and acquaintances that were part of my circle inherited by the relationship. I tried to adopt similar views, values and a set of beliefs to be accepted, blend in, and experience validation. Again, all that in an effort of trying to experience being loved. The flip side of this behavior is because that is not genuine, eventually, it does catch up with you and it did. Before I knew it, my beliefs, values, and views were all compromise in a knot of false perceptions.
The upside of the ending of my marriage was that I had a chance to work on getting these knots created for over 20 years and set myself free by permitting me to become my true-self again. This journey is not easy and can be tenuous at times because to move beyond the fog it requires to be brave and accept ownership of your life. This process is the same with any life-changing circumstances if we want to experience peace, harmony, love, purpose, and a level of happiness with satisfaction. I am an intuitive person and I have always been aware of it since early childhood. Accepting that and trying to overcome the fear to be labeled as different or with a degree of insanity, has been my hold back in my life.
In retrospect, I do laugh because our current world has shown to us that what we thought was normal, now is more like insanity. We thought that having the desire for a great gain of material accumulation and wealth with no regards to what was doing to the environment, to our set of happiness beliefs was normal. Now, we are in a race to find ways to reverse the damage of our consumption of natural resources and the disposable habits. We thought that the accumulation of wealth will get us to a fulfilling life and in reality all that has done is to take us further away from paying attention to what is important like our experience to share with families, friends, acquaintances, nature and ourselves. Now we find ourselves living on a treadmill, chasing the next thing that we think will makes us happy.
This perspective might not apply to everyone, but by the nature of our current life events, we can probably agree that it does to a great majority. So, the question is how we move beyond the fog of insanity? We make an effort to check on our set of beliefs that do trigger this behavior and try to understand the origin of them by asking thoughtful questions. Where these set of beliefs comes from? How do I create or inherited them? When did they become my set of beliefs? Why do I continue living with them if they are not working for me?
Those were the questions I started to ask myself that lead me to write this book by intuitive inspiration and guidance. I hope you take on this process to explore the possibilities and find your way to move beyond the fog of your perception.
Be brave!
Ray Ortiz